A Sign...

it was selfish.
and stupid.
but i did it anyway because i am human.
i actually prayed for a sign.
a sign to tell me that who i wanted wasnt going to waste my time.
a sign telling me that who i was falling for wasnt a bad choice.
i think i got my sign.
maybe. or was it wishful thinking?
i will never ever know.
i would like to believe that i got a good sign.
but it is so hard to tell with something like this...
anyways, what happened was that i fell for my breakout group leader, josiah.
he is a junior majoring in psychology and he is gorgeous. and nice. and sweet. and a Christian guy. which makes him, in a word, perfect.
so yesterday was a little thing called 'The Hike.' it wasnt a hike but all the freshmen have to do a scavenger hunt around campus, make cardboard boats, and become team players with their breakout groups.
after the scavenger hunt we went to eat dinner. here is where i prayed for a sign, a billboard letting me know that taking a risk would be worth it this time. i prayed so selfishly. it was terrible. after dinner, we headed down to the lake and it was misting and i freeze VERY easily. this may be a bad thing at times, but yesterday it was ultimately a good thing.
on the way to the lake, i was walking with josiah and shivering. he asked me if i wanted his jacket. i felt like such a jerk but i was so cold my hands were turning purple. 'are you sure you don't need it? it might start raining any second' i said.
'yeah im sure. here.' he said and unzipped it and handed it to me.
needless to say i was warm on the inside as well as the outside.
he didnt ask for it back. but i returned it later cuz i didnt want to be a thief. after my suitemate joy and i went to watch toy story 3, i came back to my room and thanked him on facebook. if you want to read it, look it up. is that flirting or is it just me who sees that?
so. maybe this will go somewhere. maybe not. i have no way of knowing.
and i hate uncertainty.
grr.
but also
yay!