This is one of the CUTEST songs ever.
no joke.
Sarah and Sania need to listen to this.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RfYNi9WRJb8&feature=related
go here! ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ no joke.
Love forever, Pretty Princess
Monday, May 31, 2010
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Dear World,
'all good things must come to an end' right? no, i think not. high school was definitely not considered 'good.' the PEOPLE and some of the times were good, and i am going to miss so many of the AMAZING people i have come to know and love. but i know that those relationships that have kept my sanity in tact will continue to grow stronger. i would rather die than lose those people.
Graduation is Sunday. it is meant to be a happy ceremony where the accomplishments of devoted students are meant to be celebrated. but for me, it will be a tough thing to get through. i lost someone very close to me who never got to see me perform a show or even start high school. he never got to see my amazing, though sometimes klutzy, soccer skills. he never got to see the work i did for the yearbook or the Aerial. he will never be able to see me graduate high school or college, never see me grow up and possibly get married or be the editor that i want to be. and as i write this, i have to fight back tears. my uncle Ray was so incredibly important to be and he wont be here to witness the things i have done. he passed away in march of my 8th grade year, after fighting cancer. i know that i am selfish in wanting him here to be with me as i take a huge leap into a new and unknown future, especially when he is in a far greater place than this black pit we call Earth. i wish he could be here so badly that its a physical pain in my chest. that's why i wear the locket he had picked out for me for my 16th birthday, which he wasn't here for. i miss you, Unkie. i know that you will be watching me as i take my diploma and move the tassel on my cap on Sunday. but that still doesn't make up for the empty place only you could fill. i love you and miss you so much and i dedicate my whole high school career to you.
hmm. now that i got that off my chest, i feel incredibly better. i had a good day for my last day of school and i had so much fun this afternoon at the movies with Caitlin and her mommy. Letters to Juliet is a fantastic movie that made the hopeless romantic in me melt. go see it.
Pretty Princess says farewell.
Graduation is Sunday. it is meant to be a happy ceremony where the accomplishments of devoted students are meant to be celebrated. but for me, it will be a tough thing to get through. i lost someone very close to me who never got to see me perform a show or even start high school. he never got to see my amazing, though sometimes klutzy, soccer skills. he never got to see the work i did for the yearbook or the Aerial. he will never be able to see me graduate high school or college, never see me grow up and possibly get married or be the editor that i want to be. and as i write this, i have to fight back tears. my uncle Ray was so incredibly important to be and he wont be here to witness the things i have done. he passed away in march of my 8th grade year, after fighting cancer. i know that i am selfish in wanting him here to be with me as i take a huge leap into a new and unknown future, especially when he is in a far greater place than this black pit we call Earth. i wish he could be here so badly that its a physical pain in my chest. that's why i wear the locket he had picked out for me for my 16th birthday, which he wasn't here for. i miss you, Unkie. i know that you will be watching me as i take my diploma and move the tassel on my cap on Sunday. but that still doesn't make up for the empty place only you could fill. i love you and miss you so much and i dedicate my whole high school career to you.
hmm. now that i got that off my chest, i feel incredibly better. i had a good day for my last day of school and i had so much fun this afternoon at the movies with Caitlin and her mommy. Letters to Juliet is a fantastic movie that made the hopeless romantic in me melt. go see it.
Pretty Princess says farewell.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Dear World,
tomorrow is the LAST DAY of high school for me. i am incredibly excited and amazed that i survived it! i am going to miss so many people next year. i can't believe it. i have made so many new friends that i never thought i would ever be friends with. you know who you are and i am blessed to have you in my life. i do not know where i would be without you. :) but with new friendships also comes something bittersweet: the loss of some people that i thought would be in my life forever. it hurts to know that some of the people you grew up with and were basically sisters with, don't really even care about you anymore. i know that i am better off though, because i have more people waiting to fill in the cracks that they left behind. thank you so much!
dear sarah, i know that with all the stuff that has been forced on you today and the past couple of weeks, you are INCREDIBLY stressed out. but don't worry. God has a plan and things will definitely work out the way that they are supposed to. try not to worry so much, hun! and if you do start to worry like a crazy worrying thing on worry tablets, you are welcome at my place any day! my mommy likes you. lol she thinks you are silly. and that we look like sisters. we really will once i go back to my normal hair color. lol. ok. that is what i wanted to say. love, pretty princess.
dear sarah, i know that with all the stuff that has been forced on you today and the past couple of weeks, you are INCREDIBLY stressed out. but don't worry. God has a plan and things will definitely work out the way that they are supposed to. try not to worry so much, hun! and if you do start to worry like a crazy worrying thing on worry tablets, you are welcome at my place any day! my mommy likes you. lol she thinks you are silly. and that we look like sisters. we really will once i go back to my normal hair color. lol. ok. that is what i wanted to say. love, pretty princess.
Monday, May 24, 2010
Dear World,
this is a poem that we i had to write for composition. we had to describe something ugly that is also beautiful, or something beautiful that could be ugly. mr. hernandez talked about this stuff that is made in whale's bellies that they used to put in perfume to make it stay on your skin longer. yuck. i wrote about how an argument could be incredibly ugly but can bring out the beauty in people. enjoy! oh, and criticism is accepted!
He throws She feels
all his weight the cool perfume bottle
into the punch clutched in her sweating palm
he aims she aims
at the bathroom wall. at the bedroom wall.
CRASH! CRASH!
I didn't cheat. He cheated.
He loves her. She loves him.
How could she How could he
think that? do that to me?
He runs into the closet. She runs into the kitchen.
He quickly snatches up She gingerly picks up
his favorite golf club. her prized glass vase
and swings it into and flings it against
the mirror the mirror
in the bathroom. in the bedroom.
SMASH! SMASH!
Shards of glass Shards of glass
catch the light catch the light
as they fall as they fall
to the tile, to the carpet,
beautifully spinning, beautifully spinning,
like glittering ballet dancers, like glittering ballet dancers,
before tinkling to the floor. before tinkling to the floor.
What was that? What was that?
His head swivels Her head swivels
towards the door. towards the door.
He sprints She sprints
to the bedroom. to the bathroom.
They collide
in the middle,
with
tears in his eyes. tears in her eyes.
I have hid things from you,
lied to protect you.
But I have never, ever,
cheated on you.
He whispers.
From the open door
he can see she can see
broken glass
in the bedroom. in the bathroom.
Shining on the floor,
like sparkling, beautiful islands,
glass pieces glisten in the bright lights,
reflecting the
complete and utter love
they had for each other,
amidst the sea of glass.
You are beautiful, You are beautiful,
he whispered. she whispered.
p.s. if the spacing is off, i am dearly sorry. i will try to correct it.
love, Pretty Princess
He throws She feels
all his weight the cool perfume bottle
into the punch clutched in her sweating palm
he aims she aims
at the bathroom wall. at the bedroom wall.
CRASH! CRASH!
I didn't cheat. He cheated.
He loves her. She loves him.
How could she How could he
think that? do that to me?
He runs into the closet. She runs into the kitchen.
He quickly snatches up She gingerly picks up
his favorite golf club. her prized glass vase
and swings it into and flings it against
the mirror the mirror
in the bathroom. in the bedroom.
SMASH! SMASH!
Shards of glass Shards of glass
catch the light catch the light
as they fall as they fall
to the tile, to the carpet,
beautifully spinning, beautifully spinning,
like glittering ballet dancers, like glittering ballet dancers,
before tinkling to the floor. before tinkling to the floor.
What was that? What was that?
His head swivels Her head swivels
towards the door. towards the door.
He sprints She sprints
to the bedroom. to the bathroom.
They collide
in the middle,
with
tears in his eyes. tears in her eyes.
I have hid things from you,
lied to protect you.
But I have never, ever,
cheated on you.
He whispers.
From the open door
he can see she can see
broken glass
in the bedroom. in the bathroom.
Shining on the floor,
like sparkling, beautiful islands,
glass pieces glisten in the bright lights,
reflecting the
complete and utter love
they had for each other,
amidst the sea of glass.
You are beautiful, You are beautiful,
he whispered. she whispered.
p.s. if the spacing is off, i am dearly sorry. i will try to correct it.
love, Pretty Princess
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Dear World,
oh how i love lazy sundays. it is just me, Spongebob Squarepants, my build-a-bear cow Norbert and a can of Arizona Strawberry Kiwi juice. i decided not to study for exams. i mean, i only have english (which i know i will pass anyways), computer apps 2 (im pretty sure we can use the computer) and accounting. i might look over my accounting, but really. i graduate in one week. the first week of may, i stopped caring about school.
today in church all the graduates had to get up in front of the congregation, state where we were graduating from, where we were planning on attending college and what we were going to major in. as most people know, i am completely and utterly TERRIFIED of talking in front of people. i didnt pass out though. which is a good thing....
SUMMER is just around the corner! i can almost feel the waves and sand at the beach. thats where i plan to spend most of my time, unless i get the job i applied for. i hope i do. i need the money so badly. i feel like a loser when i go out with my friends and they have to pay for me. its terrible.
i am going to take a short nap before lunch because i had to be up at the butt crack of dawn. goodnight.
Pretty Princess is going to sleep.
today in church all the graduates had to get up in front of the congregation, state where we were graduating from, where we were planning on attending college and what we were going to major in. as most people know, i am completely and utterly TERRIFIED of talking in front of people. i didnt pass out though. which is a good thing....
SUMMER is just around the corner! i can almost feel the waves and sand at the beach. thats where i plan to spend most of my time, unless i get the job i applied for. i hope i do. i need the money so badly. i feel like a loser when i go out with my friends and they have to pay for me. its terrible.
i am going to take a short nap before lunch because i had to be up at the butt crack of dawn. goodnight.
Pretty Princess is going to sleep.
Friday, May 21, 2010
Dear World,
wow. today was actually a good day. that's actually a surprising thing. hmm...
this morning started off rather crappy because i woke up thinking it was saturday. that threw my whole morning off. 2nd hour was pretty good. thank you nathan gardner, even though you are really scary. 3rd hour was lame because we didn't do anything at all. 4th hour, i hung out with my big sissy! we looked at the new Seventeen magazine. it has a list at the back of 17 things to do this summer. sarah and i already said that we are going to complete it. i don't know where to find a tandem bicycle though.... the seniors got their senior band shirts. i stripped in the office and am wearing it now. yay! 5th hour, we learned about medical marijuana. thanks brandon. lol. 6th hour, kayla's grandma brought in home-made cream puffs! they were freaking amazing!!!!!!!! favorite dessert, ever, possibly. and 7th hour, now, i am with my girls: sarah and crysania. even though sania is making me angry. EAT, DANG IT! EAT! grr! yes, i did just growl at you. then this evening i get to go eat dinner with my family. i love family dinners. they make me smile.
so...this guy. he is everything i want, everything i need. he says all the right things at exactly the right time...but he is just a friend... (yes i do realize that i just used song lyrics from 'Everything You Want' by Vertical Horizon. the lyrics describe my situation right now.) its sad that he could be all i have ever wanted/needed. but i just don't think that we fit together. well, not even that. i am just not...ugh. i don't even know why i can't bring myself to be with him. my mom really likes him and approves of him. maybe it will all get clearer this summer. i really hope so. everything looks brighter in the summer time.
hmm. i don't know what else to say right now. i am content. for the first time in a long time, i am content.
ok. nevermind. today turned out rather poopy. because of my freaking mood swings. grr.
Pretty Princess OUT! :D
this morning started off rather crappy because i woke up thinking it was saturday. that threw my whole morning off. 2nd hour was pretty good. thank you nathan gardner, even though you are really scary. 3rd hour was lame because we didn't do anything at all. 4th hour, i hung out with my big sissy! we looked at the new Seventeen magazine. it has a list at the back of 17 things to do this summer. sarah and i already said that we are going to complete it. i don't know where to find a tandem bicycle though.... the seniors got their senior band shirts. i stripped in the office and am wearing it now. yay! 5th hour, we learned about medical marijuana. thanks brandon. lol. 6th hour, kayla's grandma brought in home-made cream puffs! they were freaking amazing!!!!!!!! favorite dessert, ever, possibly. and 7th hour, now, i am with my girls: sarah and crysania. even though sania is making me angry. EAT, DANG IT! EAT! grr! yes, i did just growl at you. then this evening i get to go eat dinner with my family. i love family dinners. they make me smile.
so...this guy. he is everything i want, everything i need. he says all the right things at exactly the right time...but he is just a friend... (yes i do realize that i just used song lyrics from 'Everything You Want' by Vertical Horizon. the lyrics describe my situation right now.) its sad that he could be all i have ever wanted/needed. but i just don't think that we fit together. well, not even that. i am just not...ugh. i don't even know why i can't bring myself to be with him. my mom really likes him and approves of him. maybe it will all get clearer this summer. i really hope so. everything looks brighter in the summer time.
hmm. i don't know what else to say right now. i am content. for the first time in a long time, i am content.
ok. nevermind. today turned out rather poopy. because of my freaking mood swings. grr.
Pretty Princess OUT! :D
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Dear World,
How is it possible that he still gets to me? that i still feel myself catch my breath when i see him? i know that i have no effect on him whatsoever so why is it happening to me? he doesn't want me. he will never want me. i know this. i can feel this with every fiber of my being. i am not even entirely or completely sure that i want him either. but the way he held me that night, like he didn't want to let me go. it felt good; really good. the feeling of being encircled by his arms keeps jabbing my memory, making me want something that i never had. it makes me think of every sappy love story movie i have ever seen: Moulin Rouge, Romeo and Juliet, Tristan and Isolde, the Phantom of the Opera, etc, all rolled into one grand mash of images that i wish i could be in. but i am not. i am not noticed. i am too plain to stand out in a sea of faces. this is life in the princess castle: definitely not what it is cracked up to be. i know i shouldn't be thinking about this like i am but i can't help it. ever have an episode where all these images are on continuous loop in your mind? that happens more and more these days. sometimes i did wish that my mind had an off button...
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Dear World,
i am in school at this moment. i will be leaving at 3. oh, how i wish that bell would ring.
today i presented my powerpoint for government. it was horrible. i hope i havent completely failed it.
this one question keeps running through my head: when you fall for a person, is there an exact moment when you realize that there is no way in hell that you could ever be worthy of someone like them? it is all i can think about. why cant i be good enough? as stupid and cliche teen-angsty as it sounds, i feel like i am not good enough for a guy, or my parents, or my friends. it is basically ridiculous. all of my friends are gorgeous and amazing in every way possible. and then here i am. no wonder that every person that looks at me just skims right over me. i am not worth stopping and looking at. and no matter what i do, i feel like i could never be good enough, never meet my parents' expectations. i am definitely not as smart as my mom thinks i am. i am not a straight A student. i am completely and totally average and it is pathetic. there is not one single thing that sets me apart from others. i am utterly plain. i fit into the background so well it is almost as if i am not there.
wow. that was happy and awesome. too bad i am in a crap mood.
Pretty Princess is going to go be average now....
today i presented my powerpoint for government. it was horrible. i hope i havent completely failed it.
this one question keeps running through my head: when you fall for a person, is there an exact moment when you realize that there is no way in hell that you could ever be worthy of someone like them? it is all i can think about. why cant i be good enough? as stupid and cliche teen-angsty as it sounds, i feel like i am not good enough for a guy, or my parents, or my friends. it is basically ridiculous. all of my friends are gorgeous and amazing in every way possible. and then here i am. no wonder that every person that looks at me just skims right over me. i am not worth stopping and looking at. and no matter what i do, i feel like i could never be good enough, never meet my parents' expectations. i am definitely not as smart as my mom thinks i am. i am not a straight A student. i am completely and totally average and it is pathetic. there is not one single thing that sets me apart from others. i am utterly plain. i fit into the background so well it is almost as if i am not there.
wow. that was happy and awesome. too bad i am in a crap mood.
Pretty Princess is going to go be average now....
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Dear World,
Hello all. how are you today earthlings?
ok, green mood now. i am not very nervous about my government stuff now. i got to see others present their projects and i am pretty sure that i wont faint or die from nervousness. pray that i dont when i present tomorrow. lol.
now. on to a more...important...topic. is it incredibly sad and pathetic that i feel like i will be the the girl who will always be the bridesmaid for her best friends? that i will be able to start my own protestant convent because i know that i wont find anyone good enough for me? that out of the billions of people on this planet i know that i am going to be alone for the rest of my life? wow. i need to snap out of this moody mood. maybe later. going to go eat dinner. good night for now.
Pretty Princess says farewell.
ok, green mood now. i am not very nervous about my government stuff now. i got to see others present their projects and i am pretty sure that i wont faint or die from nervousness. pray that i dont when i present tomorrow. lol.
now. on to a more...important...topic. is it incredibly sad and pathetic that i feel like i will be the the girl who will always be the bridesmaid for her best friends? that i will be able to start my own protestant convent because i know that i wont find anyone good enough for me? that out of the billions of people on this planet i know that i am going to be alone for the rest of my life? wow. i need to snap out of this moody mood. maybe later. going to go eat dinner. good night for now.
Pretty Princess says farewell.
Monday, May 17, 2010
Dear World,
i would LOVE to know when knowledge about the United States federal government will ever come in handy in my life. i plan on becoming an editor for a publishing company and i am pretty sure that i wont need to know the inner-workings of the federal reserve. taking A.P. Government was a BAD idea.
as my senior year draws to close, i find myself not caring about school so much. aside from government, this year has been pretty easy, not including friend drama and all of that stuff. dont get me wrong, my friends are the WORLD to me, but seriously, just chill sometimes. :D love ya!
is it sad that i would rather skip college all together and just become a nomad and roam around the world? i would need some monies though so that might not be a good idea. traveling is my passion, as is writing, and i could do both at the same time. i want to see everything: Rome, Venice, Paris, London, Istanbul, Moscow, Prague, Berlin, Dublin, Tokyo, Athens, New York. the list goes on and on. i would kill to be like the people i see on travel channel. ah, dreams. they lie just out of your grasp, and when you think you see an opening in which to snatch them up, they flee further away. sad.
well, i am done for today. feeling like i might go read a book or watch The Princess and the Frog. i love that movie.
Pretty Princess says FAREWELL!
as my senior year draws to close, i find myself not caring about school so much. aside from government, this year has been pretty easy, not including friend drama and all of that stuff. dont get me wrong, my friends are the WORLD to me, but seriously, just chill sometimes. :D love ya!
is it sad that i would rather skip college all together and just become a nomad and roam around the world? i would need some monies though so that might not be a good idea. traveling is my passion, as is writing, and i could do both at the same time. i want to see everything: Rome, Venice, Paris, London, Istanbul, Moscow, Prague, Berlin, Dublin, Tokyo, Athens, New York. the list goes on and on. i would kill to be like the people i see on travel channel. ah, dreams. they lie just out of your grasp, and when you think you see an opening in which to snatch them up, they flee further away. sad.
well, i am done for today. feeling like i might go read a book or watch The Princess and the Frog. i love that movie.
Pretty Princess says FAREWELL!
Dear World,
Hello! I have created a blog upon Sarah Lorene Knowlton's request. i hope she is happy now. lol. apparently i am a pretty princess. or just at prom. lol. k. i have no idea what to talk about so bye for today!
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