This whole concept is irrational...

The way I feel about this boy is irrational.
The way anyone feels about anybody on the planet is irrational.
The whole concept of lust, love, envy, anger, aggression, acceptance; is completely and utterly irrational.

Why do I feel so irrationally linked to this boy who doesn't even acknowledge my existence?

I can admit that if I were asked to pick the single most attrative guy out of all the ones here at Grace, I am not sure I would pick him. He has incredible buff arms and is attractive in a scruffy-football-player kind of way. He is shy and sweet and funny, vulnerable and strong at the same time. He seems like the kind of boy who would be the protector, the strong tower in the face of adversity.

I have realized that the above qualities are my type. Odd.

Last night I spent more time talking to a good friend than I did on my homework, and I am very glad of this fact. He gave me some of the most beautiful words I have ever read. Check it out:
If he looked into your eyes… he would see something not reflected in anyone else’s eyes he has ever looked into. He would see the twinkling, the honesty; your heart. He would not only see your eyes, but in a strange way hear every one of your heartbeats as they steadily get louder and more frequent. He would gaze into them and get lost; it would be as though the chains of time no longer held him and all that would matter would be that moment. All that there would be was that moment and in that moment, he would feel everything, and nothing. He’d have the whole world in his hands and it would be such a powerful thing that tears would be shed because they weren’t ready for it. I mean that. :D

I agree with all of the above because I am completely irrational.