everyday i wake up and put on a costume.
i should win an oscar. really.
the costume makes the character right?
the other day i went to the mall with some of my friends. my costume that day was short shorts and a purple tank top. i chose those because i knew the others would be wearing relatively the same thing. was i right in thinking this? of course i was. i put on my costume and felt completely out of place. that wasnt me. was it? i cant tell anymore. i hated that costume because i knew i didnt belong in it. i knew that i didnt look like the others. all i wanted was to slip into the group, feel like i belonged there. i didnt.
today i woke up and put on modest jean shorts and a tee shirt. i am humble here at home. partly because i have two secrets to hide from family members who would disinherit me were they to find out about them. just another costume.
even getting into the car to go to the grocery store, i have to change again. another costume. one that will maybe get me noticed. does it ever? no. do i try my hardest? sadly yes. when this happens i feel that little spark of green flair up inside my chest, that spark the never is completely blown out. the spark is hot and tinged green. bet you can guess what it is.
costumes. i know what you mean.
ReplyDeletei never realli thought about it like that though.
i say, waer what you want. because you don't want to wear something.."skanky", i guess is the word, cause you'll attract the kind of guy that likes those fake little skanks. wear what you feel comfortable in, and there will be a guy that LOVES that. (:
no there isnt. guys look for certain things when they see a girl at the mall or whatever: they take in looks. generally if the girl is a blondey, skinny, girly girl, then she has a guy attached to her hand or one gazing longingly after her. seeing as how i am none of those things, it doesnt matter what i wear because nobody notices me anyways.
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