Dear World,

hello all three of my followers. lol.
so. i am sitting here at the computer and i am thinking about something cool to talk about. there really isnt anything. other than i am signed up for college classes. woot. and i went to the movies twice this past week. and i know im going twice next week too. :) ECLIPSE WITH THE YEARBOOK CREW! woot.
sooo. something interesting. i have figured out that i am always the one who is disappointed. i get my hopes up and they come crashing down like broken glass. i had expected someone that i cared very much for to be there for me. and he wasnt. i got so hopeful that i could count on him and he turned out like almost every other guy i have met. nothing has changed, even tho i thought that maybe with him, things would be different. got my hopes up WAY too high. stupid me.
my sister, tasha and i were talking about standards today. standards that we have for guys and if we should lower them or not. i know that i dont have the confidence in myself to be able to make a guy fall for me, but i do have high standards for guys. i dont think that i should lower them for somebody because i would feel like i was settling for less than the best i could get, in some world where guys actually noticed me. maybe my standards of personality are pretty high, but mostly, i just want a funny, loyal, Christian guy who doesnt mind me spending hours in a book store or that i snort when i laugh; i want a guy who will come up behind me and just hug me for no reason, or kiss my forehead, take my hand in public. thats not so unreasonable is it??
and now people are makind me angry. why cant they just see reason? see that what choices they are making, are hurting them, not helping? ugh. i give up. wait. no i dont. oh well. it doesnt matter what i think anyways. grr.
farewell world, for tonight at least.
~ Pretty Princess